i feel very stuck right now, stuck in a temporary mindset that is always thinking and planning but just waiting around for things that i’m looking forward to to start happening. it’s making me start to feel like all the progress i made about things that really were tearing me up is starting to unravel. i need to not let my days to myself let my mind wander and get re-hurt and angry about things that i already started to let go of. i need to let those things become part of me, but not who i am, and not let them control my daily happiness. because i think truly letting go of something needs to be controlled by me or else it will seem fake and forced. my relationships with people are teaching me so much about myself, and what i need from the closest people to me, which is the opportunity to be honest with eachother when things are said and done that are hurtful. and to allow myself to realize that the expectations i had of someone aren’t what they are capable of, and sometimes that has to be okay, no matter how much i like them or want to be with them. and sometimes i won’t get the closure i need, so i need to create it for myself. i just don’t know how yet.